Puzzle Pieces

Puzzle Piece

There is a hole inside of me.  
It’s not very big.  Not really.  
But it’s there.  And I feel it.  
Every day it grows just a little.  
Not much.  Not really.  
But it grows.  Maybe a nanometer.  Maybe less.
It’s like I’m a puzzle that came with one piece missing
and no matter where I look, I can’t find the piece.  
It’s driving me insane.  I can feel it.  And it’s driving me insane.

For a while, I really thought I had it.  
I really thought I’d found that puzzle piece.  
It was in you.  
Did you know?  
Somewhere inside of you there’s a little puzzle piece
that fits perfectly in that stupid hole inside of me.  
For the first time, it was like the picture of me was
finally complete.  
I could see everything.  
My body, my mind, my soul,
painted a landscape
and you had the brush.

Do you have a hole inside of you too?  
You must.  
But I must not have your puzzle piece.  
Because you left.  
Just when I thought we’d
complete the puzzle, make the landscape, be whole,
you left.  
And you took my missing piece with you.  
And now the hole is growing.

Why is it growing?  
I don’t even know.  
Only one piece has gone.  
Why does it feel like you took a thousand more?  
And each day, as that hole keeps getting bigger, it keeps hurting a little more.  
And the hurt is driving me insane.  
I don’t like insanity.
It’s cold.  
And lonely.  

So…lonely.

Could you come back?  
You don’t even have to be mine.  
You could be anybody’s.  
All I want to do is see you
and that one little piece you hold,
and the thousands of others it dragged along with it.  
If I could just see it, I think that would be enough.  
Just come back please.

And if you did come back and wanted to try again,
wanted to give back all those little pieces you stole without even meaning to,
I think I’d be ok with that.  
It wouldn’t be so lonely anymore.  
Maybe I’d feel sane again.  
Maybe this world would make sense.  
Maybe that hole inside of me would stop getting bigger.  
Maybe…
maybe…
maybe…

Don’t leave me alone…

Please…

Please…